Almost a year

Hi everyone, i don't if anyone is reading this blog but ah well it has been almost year, almost, since my last post.

And i figured i should post again with so many things changing around me now.

People, time and school.

If any of my friends manage to scramble on this blog,

you found my inner mind.

Welcome.

Alright so let me begin, i ended my 1st sem of my 2nd year here at NAFA.

How time flies so quickly.

Yet in this 1.5 years so much have changed.

As we are approaching exam week, with project submissions due and concerts coming up, many of us are really drained.

And with me taking an extra module this sem, it's yet another added stress.

The teacher is strict too.

To comfort myself, i will always think that this is nothing compared to O levels,

the fatigue that eats into your mind then.

And worse, what if i had stayed on JC and am taking my A levels now?

This is small compared to those above,

i guess this is where i find my energy to carry on.

Recently there's been a shift in my mindset about my social circle,

what is happening and what may happen.

Sometimes i don't understand why people make life so complicated.

Friends confessing their inner self, friends that i have to let go (perhaps soon)

and friends who.... are very ambiguous.

"Come away, come away, death."

have been listening to Finzi's Let Us Garlands Bring.

I love the piano accompaniment and the melody writing for the voice.

This song somehow brings a little peace to this unsettling mind of mine.

"Fly away, fly away, breath"

I'm also frustrated with my singing.

These few week's voice coaching hasn't really been pleasant,

well at least to me.

"it is always not enough"

I need to express more,

but what about my breath? does it have what it takes to support me on?

My voice coacher keeps pushing and pushing me.

Trying to get me out of my own box.

It's also interesting how an extrovert like me have no problems expressing my feelings

in everyday life

but yet can't express myself the same way as when in singing.

I believe a part of the reason goes to technically not being there yet.

And therefore my mind and body feels that it's not ready to release myself out from the box yet.

Have been struggling with breath support this week,

thankfully i am satisfied by my practice today in school

i worked the support out.

Partly thanks to kishani's masterclass too.

So amazing how a mere thought (of support) can affect your voice.

Ah yes, we had our last performance yesterday.

Mozart's requiem, edited by Robert Levin

Overall, it was averagely passable.

But i'm also feeling disgruntled.

Why must we compensate to (emptiness) of people not contributing?

They don't sing properly, and make us cover for them.

Followers, those who are unsure of entrances.

Ugh, i've discussed much about this with my friends so i won't say any much more.

Yeah basically this is a summary of what is mainly happening in my life right now!

Good things and Bad.

It's just a phase that we all have to go through,

i guess.

First Post of Year 2014

Hi everyone, we have traveled in time & are now in year 2014. 

4 years of comatose, I am finally back.

Interesting how the idea of visiting my old blogs just popped into my head.

& Poof! Now i'm here writing my first post of 2014!

Hmm...so much has happened i don't even know where to start!

Alright, let me just do a run-through on these 4 MIA years.

Ah, yes. I guess the reason why i didn't blog anymore since 2010 was because i was promoted to be a senior and had to prepare for my 'O' levels.

You could say 2011-2012, were both exciting, fun-filled yet tiresome years.

In 2011, I just got streamed into the triple science class taking 

Pure Physics, Chemistry & Biology.

I was definitely elated that I got into the triple science class because it was my goal then and I did really managed to reach my goal.

I took English(duh.), Chinese, Higher Chinese, Elementary & Additional Math.

On top of that I had Music 'O' levels too.

Oh my goodness, now come to think of it, i really did not know how i managed to juggle with so many subjects.

Although I only did averagely for my 'O' levels, definitely not up to what i aimed for, but i was also grateful there weren't any Cs in the certificate.

Well, at least, except Higher Chinese.

& I finally got it over & done with on late November 2012.

I could still remember the joy & the sense of relief that i was finally done with exams. FINALLY.

Afterwhich i had this long 2 months break from December 2012-January 2013, i thought i could enjoy my holidays. 

Alas! That was not to be as my aunt called me to work as a data-entry clerk.

And so.. i took up my first job!

It was a horrible 1 month going to work everyday from 8am-5:30pm, sitting in front of the computer all day keying survey datas.

Thankfully, i had awesome colleagues that made my days a little less miserable.

After collecting my 'O' level results, it was a definite path to junior college(JC) for me.

It was my intention & goal afterall to be able to get into a JC!

And so, my 2 months of JC started at SRJC. (2013)

During my application to the junior colleges, i was also offered a chance to be able to study a music teaching diploma at Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts(NAFA).

So i decided that i would apply for both institutions.

The academic year for JC started first so i went and registered at SRJC.

Auditions & Interviews for  NAFA were also happening simultaneously whilst i was in JC.

In April, the results for NAFA was out.

I have been accepted into NAFA.

It took me quite a while to decide if i should transfer schools and give up on JC to study music at NAFA.

After much consideration, i decided that. my future was in NAFA.

 & so i left JC and came to NAFA!

The academic year for NAFA started in July last year (2013), starting my freshman year there.

Now that 1 semester flown by real quick, there are just so many new things to talk about!

Not only new friends, but new knowledge too.

I feel that my brain has branched out the music sector of my brain.

My first semester here in NAFA, i've really grown a lot physically & mentally.

My course has only 5 people(including me). 

So the bond between us is very strong, and guess what? All of us are girls!

The 5 of us (5 peeps, we call ourselves) are all studying a diploma in music teaching, training us to become teachers of the future!

Interesting how sometimes life bends its own way out.

Being so science-orientated since primary & secondary school, all i wanted to do was science!

And now, i'm here as a music major.

Music to me, is my everything. Without music, life is a mistake.

I have been an avid fan of music. Listening from records to walkmans to mp3s.

I also started learning the piano at 7 while the electone (somewhat sim. to an organ) at 8.

The music path I created for myself have come a long way.

From ABRSM exams to 'O' level Music, now i am here embarking on the real deal, the real journey to my teaching/arts/future career!

Til now, it is still unimaginable to me where i am now.

I wouldn't have pictured myself studying in an music institution ever.

Although it was a temporary goal when i was young, but then i got side-tracked into the science-orientated path.

Somehow, i am yet back here. 

From where i started, 

music.

The burning passion to understand it, 

to perform it.

& the thrills of listening to it,

be it classical or whatever genre that is.

Music, speaks my soul.

...signed off @2:35am.